I have a Halloween pic of my little girl Sylvanis >^.^< and one where she looks like a small little fairy.. LOL

I know a long ass time snice I updated my journal..

I just haven't been feeling like getting online sometimes and when I think I can get online something comes up and I have to get off.. I guess it happens.

Will I have to my little girl to the DR yet again it's like she seeing the Dr once a week. But it can't be helped. 1. is because on one Saturday she pulled her elbow out and I had to take her to the ER.. I was fliping out. then2. She has this cough that I have a feeling thats there something not right somewhere u know.

I feel like bitch slaping my mother.. because I called the Dr and told her the Dr wanted to see Sylvanis and she sighed and then I was washing Sylvanis bottles and she comes in and says "I hope this doens't take much of my gas for the car" OMG i want to go off on her so bad.

One! Fred and I always put gas in the car. When we 1st get paid and way at the middle of the month.. and she goes out to places that we dont even go and uses up the gas. She should atlest put some gas in the car also. I know money is hard but she should tho. Oh well I dont really have the time to bitch about anything. I have alot more to complain about but I can't now.

Hee hee!

Why does my mother have to cover up for my brother?

When he does something wrong, she always let's it go. Like him having weed in the house knowing I have my 5 month in the house... WRONG!

Then My hubby and I had 1 game in our room that is like 145.00 if you sold it use and then it goes messing.... My brother seals things, he always has. So I look at him 1st and now my mother is acting like I missed placed it. Which I didn't, because my hubby put it in our room with the other ones.

Then I tell her that. She tells me that my hubby could have sold it for some money and didn't tell me.. I looked at her with a bad looked and told her, Now your going to past that on him? Why the HELL would he want to sell it when I gave that game to him... The she says, " How would you like it if I keep being up Fred's past up all the time" OMG! I was so about ready to tell her. Sure! why the hell now, Your the one who had a P.I. on him. Which I wanted to talk to her about a few nights about, but all my mother and father did was yell at me telling me I should let it go.

Like hell I can. They NEVER did that with any of my sister boyfriends at the time.. Let me see... Lorie (Twin sister) has a hubby that beats the living shit out of her. Nikki (Older sister) hang around a bad guy.. Bridget (Younger sister) Her 1st boyfriend hit my father to the ground and her boyfriend now, When in my Mother and father room and took pain pills. ALL reason to get a PI on them. But She told me she got a P.I. on Fred, because he lied to her... Thats sooo low...

Oh! Bridget (Younger sister) it going to have a baby, She is due late Jan or earily Feb of next year.. Which am kinda pissed off about, because she is only 18 years old and she is still smokeing and she seem to be enjoying herself.. But me when I was about to have Sylvanis I was put under a GREAT deal of stress with EVERYTHING. So I didn't get to enjoy my 1st. All thanks to my family.

I feel like if this keeps up. Am going to give my 30 days and find a place of our own and hope we have the money for everything we need. You know my brother lives here FREE.. He's 18 years old has no job no nothing and he eats the food we get and takes our things and doesn't have to pay for anything. Also my mother let's him get off with alot. Am sick of it. When it came to Bridget and Gunn they got away with alot, but when it came to me.. I had to be the one in Line.... Am sick of it. Am not going to take it anymore.

For now they can ALL go to HELL!

It's been a long week. But I am here!!!

I had it out with my folks and all they did was yell at me and not listen, but what is new right? My hubby and I went and got our eyes checked and well me need glasserrs, but I knew that we needed them.

I have been busy with things. Sylvanis has a tooth now.. Or should I say TWO of them coming in at the bottom.. XD I can feel them too.. Haha so cute! Sylvanis has to go see the dr on Wednesday and get a check up. I dont know what else to write, Am just getting to annoyed so I shall stop now.

Happy late of 4th of July everyone!!!

Am sorry am so late in wishing it to everyone, I just have been having problems with my Mother-in-law tho. She been going online and telling everyone she knows that am this bad person and when ever I stick up for myself all her friends start coming down on me and start coming after me....It's driving me nuts!.. -sigh- will I guess that doesn't matter.

Otherthen that, I been having some problwms with my mother, reason being is because my 18 year old sister is going to have a baby and she seems to get a happy time with it then I did when I was going to be having a baby and I keep saying that to my mother and she doens't care. My younger sister has no stress about anything and people are happy and I got so stressed out with everything, because they loved doing it to me...

Sometimes I feel like just giving up... -sigh-

Waa.. Am so sad!

Today (Well Yesturday) My little girl got her 4 month old shots.. Wa! I was playing with her when the women did it.

Sylvanis was smileing at me and then her etes went so wide and she started to cry.. WAAA I feel so bad for her. So after it was done, her daddy and I went to wal-mart with her and got her a new outfit. Wa.. My poor baby! I hope she forgives me.

Other then that, I haven't heard anything from the in -laws and I dont think I will... Oh well, will am off to bed it's been such a long day.. I just though I would do a small update.

I would like to thank visual_ken for this great REBORN Layout.. thank you...

Now.. Remember I was telling you all about my mother-in-law.. Will there is more..

I mailed her a 5 page letter telling her how I feel and how she been teating Fred and Sylvanis... She got the letter and called Fred right away, and started bitching him out, because of it. She also told him, because of me now she is moving out of state and will no loner see us. -.- OMG A DRAMAQUEEN!! Yep and she also told Fred " I will miss you for a awhile..." OMG!! How mean to tell her son that... that also pissed me off. She just hated to finally hear the thruth....

IN other news, my little girl is doing great.. Am having some problems trying to get her to sleep in hor own bed (crib) she has been asleeping with Fred and I in the middle... She seems to love it. Also my hand is doing okay.. I can finally pick up my little one, but OMG does it still hurt... Oh my hubby found something sooo funny and I want to show it to you all...

U know, I though I would go on my myspace page and see what's been going on.. and when sign on. I see my MOTHER-IN-LAW said some really mean things about us... like how we dont like her see her grandchild and everything.. OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!

Look woman! It's called we have been busy.. I just had Hand surgery and it HURTS!! like hell.. and another things.. Why doens't she get off her LAZY ASS!! and get in the car and drive to where we live and come see her grandchild..... If she really wants to see her.. GET OF OF BED U BITCH!!!! Dont go around talking bad about us, if you dont want to do anything...

The true reason why we moved out of that house of her was because the woman doesn't know how to KEEP THE FUCKING HOUSE CLEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!! it is always FUCKING DIRY!! Oh! just u way until I call her up.. If she really wants to see her grandchild sooo bad... She knows were we live... GET OFF YOU LAZY FUCKING ASS AND COME SEE HER... And dont say things behide our back's thinking we will feel like shit. Guess what it didn't work..

Son of a Bitch!!! Now my left hand hurts alot more, because I was useing it... Thanks Alot BITCH

On the 3rd I went and had to get some surgery done on my left hand.... It's hurts so much. I can't pick up Sylvanis or even help out with her. So am really sad about it.. I can't seem to move my hand at all. I just hope it heals by the time July comes.. Fred and I are haveing this fake wedding thing and a few people are coming, some of them thinks it's real tho -_- so stress there right.... I can't type thats all so I will end it here. I'll try and update again soon.

Snice I can't help myself, but to show my little girl off.. XD isn't she just awsome and dont forget is just SUPER CUTE!!

HAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOOKIE!

It's like walking on fucking ice in this fucking house... What the hell do they want us to do, Do they want us to move out?

Fred and I took Sylvanis to see the Dr today and then my mom pulls up to get gas and she doesn't even tell us that we have to give her the money for the gas.. She just says "25.00 on pump 4" no THANK YOU no NOTHING!! I wouldn't mind paying for it, if she only asked nicely and said thank you afterwords...

Snice that big huge fight they had. Fred and I feel like we are walking on ice and that is WRONG!!! they need to grow up. If this keeps up am going to tell them that if they want us out of here and we are leaving next month... Or even now..

We got back from the Dr office and she tells my dad to wake her up at 12:30 when she knew I needed to go get something for my hand at 12pm.. She is really pissing me off. My mother is being such a bitch.. I didn't move back for this shit! I moved back so Sylvanis would have a better place to live.

Why is it that I though of doing something good for my family that it back fires on me..

I can't stand it..I feel like everything is my doing..
Am just really to pack my things and walk out and see if people can get along without me...

My hubby found this pic of Sylvanas she this person in the game World of Warcraft.. I was wondering if anyone could make this pic of her into a layout for me!!! If you could I would be most happy!!!




Oh Yes! the new Icon was made by my hubby chiistar Thank you!! love ya!

Here a new pic of Sylvanis and me...

For the past two nights, I have not gotten any sleep.. Will I know I haven't gotten any sleep for a while now, but for the past two nights I haven't gotten any sleep at all. Sylvanis just doesn't want to go to sleep in her own crib and wants to sleep with Daddy and mommy.. OMG! she only two weeks old and she wants to walk and stand and hold her own things... Wow!!!

Anyways, my hubby came down with a cold last week and I took him to the ER to get some meds and then guess what, I came down with the cold >=.=< I dont blame my hubby for giving me the cold lol!! I knew it would happen sooner or later tho.. I just wish Sylvanis wont come down with it.. But if she does, I can take her to the Dr that very day.. Which is really good to me.. Will I have to go Sylvanis has a blood test she needs to get done.. I'll update more later.. Ja!